And it’s not the job’s fault.
Last night I had trouble going to sleep. Like it took a few hours of cooking shows on YouTube for my brain to stop it’s marathon run on inane subjects before I could fall asleep.*
Anyway, once my brain did slow down and I was able to wind down and fall asleep all I dreamed about all night was work – both my old job and my current job combined. It was so frustrating.
I don’t remember many details from any of the dreams, but there were at least 3 longer dreams revolving on the same theme.
In the first I had to chose between three work scenarios, each of which were going to end with someone getting hurt/killed.
You guys, I don’t have a job that involves life or death scenarios at this point so I’m not prepared to deal with this kind of decision making (yet). I wouldn’t say it was disturbing enough to call it a nightmare, but it was certainly uncomfortable.
In the second and third dream I was working at the location of one job but doing the work of the other job.
Well, now that I’m writing about it I think the only reason that this was separate dreams was because I got up to do what a person must get up to do sometimes in the middle of the night as they age.
Oh well, either way the point is that I am really feeling the need to work on getting a new job, this current job is definitely not supporting my goal of being a healthier me.
* I should explain that I have clinically confirmed/diagnosed insomnia, and I’ve learned tricks to deal with it most of the time, so while it’s a problem it’s also something I’m used to dealing with. And while I know someone out there is going to say I shouldn’t watch tv or use the computer when I’m dealing with it, I have found that for me sometimes TV/Videos are the only thing that can stave off the frustration that just hypes of my brain even further, which I find is worth the blue light that I’m viewing.